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eeeee [10 Aug 2005|06:19pm]
I swear... sometime soon. There will be pictures on this jawnie. haha
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Re instating the live journal? [05 Aug 2005|03:14am]
Yep I think I'm gonna do it. This is my last day at UArts. It's sad, and I'm SO ready for college.

I'm definitely ready to go to the beach. Anyone wanna join?
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Love Life [28 Sep 2004|05:31pm]
[ mood | poetic ]

I want you to
Open the doors
and feel the sun shine in
Breathe in the air
and let your lungs fill in
Lay in the grass
and get lost in the sky
Laugh with your friends
and don't stop until you cry
Dance in the rain
and savor the beauty of nature
Feel the beat of the music
and who cares if you're not a "dancer"

I want you to
open your eyes and see the real beauty
open your heart and feel all the love
open your mouth and tell the world how you feel
open your arms and let God give you a hug

I want you to
Open the doors
and feel the sun shine in
Breathe in the air
and let your lungs fill in
Lay in the grass
and get lost in the sky
Laugh with your friends
and don't stop until you cry
Dance in the rain
and savor the beauty of nature
Feel the beat of the music
and who cares if you're not a "dancer"

I want you to love life because
it
loves
you.

If you're one of those people who thinks poetry can only be depressing...I HATE YOU. :D

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A nice story... [15 Aug 2004|12:25pm]
[ mood | content ]

This story is about a little wave, bobbing along in the ocean, having a grand old time. He's enjoying the wind and the fresh air-- until he notices the other waves in front of him, crashing against the shore.

"My God, this is terrible," the wave says, "look what's going to happen to me!"

Then along comes another wave. It sees the first wave, looking grim, and it says to him, "Why do you look so sad?"

The first wave says, "You don't understand! ALl of us waves are going to be nothing! Isn't it terrible?"

The second wave says "No, you don't understand. You're not a wave, you're part of the ocean."

 

<3

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Hair poll. [23 Apr 2004|08:23pm]
Me and Cassie are holding a poll.

As a guy do you prefer for girls to shave it all off, have a porn star strip or keep it nicely groomed?

Girls can answer too, but this is mostly for guys.

SO far:

all: 3
porn star: 1
Groomed: 0

Comment and help me out!
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[26 Feb 2004|09:49pm]

Wanna read my journal? Comment and be my friend.

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I push it it... [27 Jan 2004|07:49pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Eep. I still can't get over that show! hehe <3

So today was the first day of classes. I have a feeling It's gonna be another one of those 1/2 of the day is cool, the other half sucks. And I definetly had better people in my classes last semester. But I think I'll be cool. I can't decide whether or not I'm gonna like creative writing...hhmm.... And for religion, I'm totally on a different level than all the other people, I'm either going to be frustrated or I am going to like it. The teacher is really cool. I'm REALLY going to try to switch out of Spanish. Like. ggrrr. I NEVER wanted to take spanish to begin with. My mom forced me. I ALWAYS wanted to take latin. Now ALL my friends are in Latin and I'm stuck with something I never wanted. I am NOT interested in speaking another language. If I'm going to another country, I do not plan to live there, I plan to visit, go on vacation, stay in an ENGLISH SPEAKING resort. Because well, they pretty much ALL are. So yeah. My mom sucks. End of story. If I'm stuck in spanish this year, I think I'll shoot someone. The only OK thing about that class is that Joe is in it, and he wasn't even there today. :/ whatev.

In other news. I realized just how much I like to make out. I mean, really, probably more than you do. Sometimes I'd rather make out w/ a really cute guy and not to anything else and I'd still be happy. hhmmm... lol

Another thing that I've been thinking about is people who "hate" so much. Honestly. I pity them. I mean, what a waste of anything that you could possibly waste. I'm not even talking about the people that hate me, just in general. I mean, every once in a while you're gonna be like "fuck, I hate [instert person/thing/idea here]!" And that's normal what I'm talking about is the people who hold grudges and judge people and are racist. I mean, what a waste of time and brain cells. Why not just LET GO of your stupid ideals that your ignorant ancestors have imbeded into your minds. Why must you hate? Ok. I had more goin on in my head. But Zak just told me something and I exploded. My guts are currently on the computer screen. I must tend to t hat before they dry on and get stuck.

Later <3

Hey! Even though this was long. Comment anyways. Make me feel loved. haha.

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weird. [26 Jan 2004|06:49pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

I'd make it a link thing. But really. I don't know how.

1) Using band names, spell out your name

Kicked In The Head
Rancid
Infamous Jake and the Pinstripe Mafia
Sublime
The Slackers
Eastern Standard Time
NOFX



2) Have you ever had a song written about you? Yah. Not that great. haha

3) What song makes you cry? I'll Catch You- The Get Up Kids
4) What song makes you happy? A LOT OF SONGS. Probably that Docta song...haha
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? Bright Eyes


PT. II

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'

HAIR COLOR: Umm. Brown, Blondish, Redish? lol

SKIN COLOR: Italian. haha You can't see my skin color cause I'm so HAIRY!
EYE COLOR: Brown like poo.
PIERCINGS: Ears. Belly
TATTOOS: Hopefully soon. :D

r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: Bright Pink
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Something by the Bare Naked Ladies
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: Lido cookie?
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: Gross and snowy
HOW ARE YOU? Still a bit sore. Other than that...tired, but a good tired.

d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: Rarely.
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Picking zitz.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: Dad: Usually Mom: Rarely.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: I'm sure I will. For the first couple months. [I agree w/ Cass]

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Erm. Will and Grace if I watched TV.
CONDITIONER: Herbal Essence
MAGAZINE: Adbusters, Punk Planet, SPin
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Shirley temple
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Bacardi Silver mmmm
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: Shows. Smoke. Friends. Cassie <3
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: Right now? Dr. Ring Ding sukka! Usually? The Slackers, Pietasters, The Blood Brothers, Bright Eyes, Mustard Plug, Bob Marley

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: Hhmm... Not that I know of. haha
GIRLFRIEND: Cassie!
SEXUALITY: I like chicks w/ dicks. hehe. or I'm Bi. Whatever.
CHILDREN: erm...I can't even live w/ a ten year old boy that I ignore.
CURRENT CRUSH: Depends on the day...haha
BEEN IN LOVE?: I'm in love with myself. My beautiful self!-Pistols <3
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: Yah.
BEEN HURT?: Everyone has been hurt.



r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: I NEED ONE SOOO BAD

YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Sublime

IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: Sparkly Pink
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: Ska. Cassie. Skanking. Ballet. Friends. Cute boys.

WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: Cassie and Bina.

WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: I want to buy that still standing ska compilation but It involves money. Which I don't have. [i'm with cassie there too]

WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: As of now. It's hard to tell other than Cassie. But you know if I really like ya or not.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: Shows. Skank. Sleep. Smoke. Shop. Make-up. Sleep. Take long hot showers...


w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?:Thursday
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?:Too long ago.
YOU GOT E-MAIL: An hour ago.
THING YOU PURCHASED: Entry into the Hamilton st. cafe.
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: Queer Eye for the Straight Guy [in the summer]

MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Torque

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: Pro choice.
TEENAGE SMOKING: Not Nessecary (I can never spell that word) you'd think since it gives you cancer kids would quit while they are ahead...
SPICE GIRLS: Everyone liked them at some time. I wanted to be baby spice everyone.

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Music Sukka. [26 Jan 2004|04:29pm]
[ mood | sore ]

Music That I either want to get into or see/hear more of.

..Ska
..Rocksteady
..Reggae
..Bass And Drum
..Dancehall

Hmm...

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Survey time [25 Jan 2004|11:50pm]
And the question is....

when your hands are cold... do you put them down your pants?

so far yes:17


no:9

COMMENT!
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If ya want a docta. CALL DE DOCTA! [25 Jan 2004|10:33pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

The F in F-A-T means PH to me!

AAHHH :D :D :D !!!!!!!!!!!!


Just got back from the Ska Mob Tour. IT WAS SOOO FUCKING AWESOME. Me and Cassie fucking skanked the night away. I LOVE going to shows where there is NO circle pit and everyone just fucking DANCES the ENTIRE time. It's shows like these that keep me on my natural high. They are imperitive to my health. They are the most beautiful things I have gotten to experience in my life so far. And all these people are instant messaging me, but talking about the show is SOOO much more important! :D

So yeah, the first band came on, they were SUPER awesome. Westbound Train, from Boston and they were SUPER awesome. Then the Hub City Stompers came on. I guess the reason why people were stomping so much was because of their name. Crazy Skin heads. But that band was SUPER funny. They had a song about liking fat chicks [hence the marquee ^] and they had a song about threesomes. That's cool in my book :D Then Eastern Standard Time Played, the REAL black guy sung like 3 songs and they rocked then Dr. Ring Ding played. HE IS SOOOOOO COOL! He's from Germany and he's white, but he's got the best fucking reggae rasta voice. AND he danced Jamaican!!!! hehe. ::remembers big bald german guy shaking his ass:: And then King Django was awesome of course. But I actually think I liked Dr. Ring Ding a lil better. I wanted the pink shirt that said "doctor's darlin" on it. IT WAS ADORABLE! Oh man. Seriously. You're all gonna HATE me for atleast a week because this shit puts me in the best mood! I need this shit EVERY weekend. FUCK PROZAC! GO TO SKA SHOWS! 1. It works better 2. It costs less 3. More sex. I don't know where the sex came in but, eehh whatever.

I LOVE YOU! [and you and you and you and you]

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.Now all I have is a barbie doll crotch, I got an angry inch. [22 Jan 2004|11:32pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Well me and my mom looked at an apartment today. Honestly I hated it. And I never ever ever want to live there. BUT I told my mom that I liked it, just to get the hell out of here. I don't know why I lied to her. I'll pay the price if we end up living there.

After that I went to marketfair w/ my mom and Brian picked me up and we went to Quakerbridge. We walked around and I got incense then Brian complained about walking and we went home. Then we watched Hedwig, I love that movie. I also love hanging out w/ Brian. He's such a sweetie <3

BINA CUT HER HAIRRRRR!!!! AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH


ok I'm done <3

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.Nothing Good to Eat. [22 Jan 2004|04:00pm]
[ mood | confused ]

So I took my art final high. I'll never take another final sober again. :D Cassie and Alex came over after school and we watched Fight Club, but we all ended up falling alseep. I love to sleep. I dunno what I am doin tonight. Hopefully somethin good.

Lately I've been wondering what's goin on in my head. Like I'm wondering why everyone else is in love, or is falling in love and I'm just like "eh I don't want to fall in love". But in reality I do. It's just. I'm scared to fall in love. The second I let myself go, something bad always happens. I guess I've been givin my heart to the wrong guy. And now, I told this guy that I just wanted to get w/ him, but like I wanna atleast be his friend, I'd feel so damn skanky if I just hooked up with him and we had no other type of relationship. And I'm also thinkin that I fucked myself over because he'll never think of me in any way other than ass because that's what I let him think. Erm. I guess it's better than being lied to. I dunno. And then I wonder if he's reading this and what he's thinking, or even if he knows I'm talkin about him... Oh well. :/

I'm sooo irritable lately! Damn period.

Kristen is confused. Kristen doesn't know where her life is going.

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Maybe there's nothing up in the sky but air... [21 Jan 2004|06:01pm]
Oh yeah... One more Post. haha.

Umm... If you only have a final first period tomorrow and you wanna drive me home. Gimme a call :D Or leave a comment. And if you wanna hang out tomorrow. Call me. I RRRREEEEAAAAAALLLLYYYY Wanna chill w/ someone new. So yeah. Call.
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[21 Jan 2004|05:53pm]
e entersandman n: you are such a fucking dumb bitch.'

What satisfaction do you get from telling someone something they already know?

e entersandman n: i really hate you kristen. i really do.'

That's what hurts. I've only hated one person in my life. I'd never want anyone to feel towards me how I feel towards my mom. Because, THAT hurts. Even if they are a stranger, or in the case probably the greatest person I ever knew.


Fuck this.
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The Origin of Love. [21 Jan 2004|04:49pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

Know what I've been doing a lot lately. Which is actually really "emo" of me. I have a feeling it has something to do with my period... Anyways.

I've been watching Hedwig and listening to origin of love and thinking about Gabe. :/ I feel like we really grew apart. But then again I don't. It's just, we really don't talk anymore. But what is there to talk about?

Lately I've been wondering what people think about. I mean. Isn't that tha WORST feeling. Not knowing what someone else is thinking. But yet. We don't do anything about it. We just accept it as reality and move on. But I'm not sure if I want to do that. I keep soo many thoughts inside with the fear that someone might think I'm weird. When the truth is. You were thinking the same thing too. Or like, you know how you see a stranger, or maybe a person that you just know of, but don't know anything about... and you kinda just form an opinion right there with nothing to support it? Maybe I'm the only one. But then I'm thinking, no one is alone in the world. and SOMEONE has to think like I do. And I wonder, if those people are looking at ME and forming opinions. I bet you are. I wonder what you are thinking. And then I get scared. At the way that I present myself to the world. The opinions that people are forming. I know the way that I act and whatever isn't the way we are "supposed" to act. But I'm fucking tired of standards. And I'm TIRED of opinions, don't get me wrong we all NEED to have them. But I'm tired of caring about them. If you OPINION of me is something bad, than I won't talk to you. Or I will ignore it. I'm tired of getting put down by opninions. We learn in school that opinions don't mean shit because they aren't facts. Well thats me. I'm a fact. I am here. I am alive. And I make my own decisions.

I want to know what you're thinking...

Know what I like about movies based on AMAZING books. It doesn't take as long to watch the movie than read the book. hehe.

I don't know.

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There is good there is good there is untouched good. [20 Jan 2004|09:50pm]
[ mood | drained ]

Wellllllllll

I just got back from ballet. It was nice. Only did one combination full on perfect. But ya know, if I did everything perfect, why would I go to class? Tomorrow we hav finals, I'm not looking forward to that. Not at all. Anyone wanna smoke after? My mom is closing, house to myself till 5ish? Orrr you can take me away and I won't have to be home till 9. woo hoo. Uhh yeah.

My moms friend fuckin met John Lydon, Steve Jones, Dee Dee Ramone. EVILLL. He's a lucky bastard. I wanna grow up just like him! Well.... maybe not. But you get what I mean.

I'm soo upset that I only take one ballet class a week. I wanna go back on pointe so bad. You know what. Next year. I'm gonna g et COMPLETELY back on track. This year I started. Next year is gonna be good. And I'm gonna be fucking hot. No braces. No Zits. And like 4 ballet classes a week. FINALLY. And a ska show EVERY weekend <3 hehe.

Welllll I'm gone. Later

P.S. The cooch is crazy. She told Kendall she got the Art award, but I really did. Poor Kendall second time this happened to her. Don't worry Kendall, I still think you are a better artist than I am.

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[19 Jan 2004|08:58pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Vince came over. We smoked. Then went to Applebees. Came home and now he left. We watched Hedwig. :D

I love that Movie.

I LOVE HEDWIG!!!!!!!!

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This is for you... [19 Jan 2004|12:53pm]
So I'm looking at pictures of Danielle on her website and I start to sob. This is most likely because I have my period. But I honestly cannot think of one specific reason why looking at these pictures would make me cry. Maybe because she is dead to me. A prayer in my head. I talk to her, but she does not talk back. The worst part is that I killed her. And I've come to the realization that she is one of the most beautiful people I know. I can't wait till the day Danielle figures herself out. I can't wait until she fights back to her depression so much that she wins. I know she can win. Call me naive. But I believe she controlls her "illness". You know how when you are sick for a very long time with a cold? And you are just so used to having a cold that you don't try to get better anymore and you become comfortable, and by this time it's all just in your head. Well it's always been in her "head". But, now being depressed is the only thing she knows. And when something is the only thing you know, you learn to find comfort in it, even if it's something bad. But it's sooo hard to break habits. It's hard for me to stop picking at my zits, I could just imagine how hard it is for her. But she needs t orealize that it is hard, but the harder you work for something you NEED, the more it's worth in the end. Danielle is such an AMAZING person, and one day she will have the whole world in the palm of her hand. I can't wait for the day that she fights back. When she does. I'll be right by her side. Call me selfish for not being there when she "needs" support, but she doesn't. She told me months ago that she didn't want me to help her. And I got tired of not being allowed to help. I got tired of being pulled down to her position. I got tired of doing what ursula is doing and becoming more and more like danielle. Danielle you are like a drug. People get addicted to you. And just like any drug you supply something good, but then at the end, something very bad.And when she said in her journal that Vince was the only person that ever made her truly smile I started to cry. Because I think back to all the times that we smiled together, and I think "how was she not happy?" Why fake it if you can feel the real thing? Danielle this is for you. You're amazing.
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fuck fuck fuck [19 Jan 2004|12:30pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Mother fucker I got my period today. If I don't smoke today, it will take my bad mood to a new level. God damn cramps.

I WANT TO FLY AWAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

yah.


Sukka.

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